no one....

2011-06-04T22:45:00.002+08:00

yes, i finally got a mood to update my blog. LOL. hahahahaha.

well, i cant wait for mid semester break. i really need a break.
college is like working, study non stop. just thank god i stay in hostel, can study more. i go back home will get distracted by so many things.

gotta work my ass off to get a flying colours results. i dont know why also. although i know that the requirement for the pharmacy is only CGPA 3.0
but i gotta feeling that this isnt going to be easy. i dont know. lol

yeah yeah, i bet people saw a lot of photo in facebook when im in college. im totally having the time of my own. =DD meeting great people, people who is full of life, people who are nice and always kind. =D it changes who i am. but i think i going to be better! i kept this in mind ' what ever you said reflect who you are from the inside.' that's sort of a lesson i learn. keep stuff with urself. =DD

oh yeah, forgot. i have got a very good bf!! =DD

2011-04-22T11:49:00.002+08:00

HEY PEOPLE!!!

i feel great!! LOL.

I survive for the orientation week, and got a lot of new friends too. =DD

me and Fiona.

MET great friends in the college.. btw,the ceremony for the orientation was awesome. =D i like the wushu part more. =D BTW, JANE was performing. =D

my friend couldnt upload the video for the performance, so have to wait for him la. stay tune. =DD

Saturday havce to go back to the school to have the Hari Anugerah. hope they give money to me. hhahaha

monday is the class itself. have to wake up very early to catch the bus to Damansara Height. Classes start at 9 but have to take the bus at 7? O.O

routine LIFE!~! lol.

HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING GREAT NOW.

2011-04-16T21:23:00.003+08:00

i think things is getting more out of expectation.

i dont know how.

i just cant keep on believe evertyhing is going to be okay now.

im not feeling happy at all. i dont know why.

no one to talk about it i guess, these family drama thing, i really wish can stop now.

i dont like it.

going to move into college tomorrow.

i dont know how it will be.

room mate is a Philippians, i dont know how she look like
sure she will be great like the pharmacy lecturer, they are VERY FRIENDLY. =D

hope the college will be great too. =D

i think since nothing to do in the hostel after class, maybe will go jogging around there to waste sometime. or not very boring.

i wont be online next whole week cause i cant get a laptop now, maybe next week will get one.

luckly bought one novel in Sunway when CY buying is comic.=D

yeah, everything will be alright YM. it will be just fine.

trust yourself, u can do it. have to work even harder in college!

JIA YOU YM.

2011-04-10T11:53:00.004+08:00

really need to start blogging now. i dont know why. hehe.

kinda lifeless these days, couldn't get a job cause have to settle with college first. bored to death at home. besides working for my mom i guess that's my only income. O.O

Thursday went out with CY in Sunway, met Krystle they all for a while then we headed to lunch. SUSHI KING. well, the taste is not so good. all the thing there is just not so fresh. hmmm..

People! you guys need to watch the movie Just Go With It, is a damn freaking funny movie. i cant stop laughing throughout the whole movie. =DD haha. went to buy formal shirt for CY in FOS. kinda cheap thou, buy one free one. =DD

nothing to do when waiting for him to change. damn freaking loong. LOL.

this is the one he wanted, look okay on him. =D

the other one he wore on the Hari Anugerah! and he got a JPA SCHOLARSHIP!! =D so happy for him. well, a bit sad also. i cant get, cause i missed the scholarship. never mind. i guess there is better chances in the future. =D

HMMM. i got to pack to move in to Mahsa this week. dont know what to bring, my sister said no need to bring so much stuff but i dont know why i brought so much. LOL. have to reduce some clothes, have to chuck in my blanket and all other thing. CANT WAIT for college to start. find back all the challenging feeling when study. =DD

LOOKING FORWARD TO MEET NEW PEOPLE! new roommate! new course mate! sort of NEW LIFE. LOL.

i really appreciate what i got now. REALLY! thank you so much for bringing all these to me. =D

2011-02-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

Okay people!!! I'm currently in Bali now. In a pub.

This os bad. Cause its after you had sweat the whole day after the trip, and haven bath. Can you imagine that? Feel so fucking uncomfortable! Oh my god.

Sis and I was kinda frustrated. Lol.

Ok ok. Let's talk about the trip. Haha.

After arriving the airport, we went for the dinner and went back to the hotel. After that, we went for whole body oil massage. Haha. That's is the first time went for massage! Lol. And I found my tickle spot!! Hahaha. Ok ok.

our dinner, taste okay.

nice hotel. hehe
To be continue.... Hehe

2011-02-13T11:33:00.002+08:00

OFF TO BALI ISLAND IN 5 HOURS. HAHAA

the trip was plan 2 or 3 days before. i know. is last minutes. and my family also dont know why. LOL. maybe just because sis not working n im not in college, so we use this opportunity to go for a trip.

hope the air asia tour will be great. =D

my driving test is next monday, and now only i learn till side parking. O.O then because of this trip, i only got two days more to have lesson. O.O one lesson for the 3 point turn and the hill thing. the other day is for on the road.

i really hope that i can pass. =DD wish me luck people!! i really need it.

okok. happy valentine's day people! =D

2011-02-11T09:54:00.002+08:00

via papertissue

there is something i feel really nice and great after a call from a friend. =D

a friend called Man Yi, who is the same primary schoolmate and same tuition mate with her. she was sitting beside me in Mr. Kumar's tuition class and also add math classes. =D

she is more than a adorable girl, haha.
she's the one who will get crazy with me together until the tutor ask us to keep quite. she is nice of course. =D

i think is yesterday, or the day before. i forgot when. haha. she called. the number that shown in the phone was unfamiliar. i pick up the phone. she ask me for a favor, see if i can replace her as a kinder garden tutor just for one day, cause she got stuff to do.

i really dont feel like turning her down but unfortunately i also have driving lesson that day. im so sorry Man Yi. =( i feel so touch because she still remembers me and will come and ask me for a favor. =D haha. maybe i sendiri perasan a bit. but who cares. hahaha

is good to have a friend like this. =D i also looking forward to meet back all my primary school friend. they are friendly and it really feels like family. =DD

Have a great day people. =D

2011-02-08T20:58:00.002+08:00

YES YES!!

house got a new member!! WAWA. =D wawa is the name for the little tinny chiwawa.

today sister bring it to the vet and get some injection and some other stuff for it. =D
she is just so adorable!! wanna see her photo? there u go.

yesterday went out with krys and sean they all to visit teacher and they go return the books to the SPBT, guess what?! the room for the SPBT is call BOSS!! Next time u go to school, try to check it out. hahaha

went to visit Mr elvin and Pn Kokilum. thanks to Pn Kokilum she gave a lot of advice for me especially in Pharmacy while Mr Elvin is brain washing me telling me that pharmacy is BORING. LOL.

everything will be great. PEOPLE!! LIFE IS GOOD!! =D

2011-02-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

Happy chinese new year to you guys... =D

Today is the first day of the chinese new year.
After breakfast with family, went to my uncle house and get some angpao. Haha.

After that went to the temple near my uncle house and have prayer. Last year we went there earlier and they gave us talisman. Haha. This year don't know why don't have. Hmmm

Anyway, the Temple got a lot bunny decoration. Its very nice. Hahaha.
Hahaha. Stop crapping about the schedule, sister is going back to melacca tomorrow, since she came back home, house became more noisy and have a lot of laughter. Maybe did talk and see her for a long time. Really missed her. Hmmm.

Okay okay. Kinda miss going out with friends and more friends. Now wveryone also not free, all aldo working or got college. Hmm. But I believe that we will have time to gather again. Yam cha or whatsoever. Haha.

Perhaps I should change my blogskin? Hmmm. Happy CNY to everyone again!! =D

2011-01-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

i miss gossip girl. =O

yes, maybe im not going to be better.. but i know im going to be okay. =D

CNY coming. this year will be more quite without my sisters. i know they coming back but just for one or two days. didnt really miss them like that before.

CNY maybe going to stay in melaka for one day, have a walk in Jonker street. is a freaking nice place. well for me. =D

okok, it's late. tomorrow going to work early. =D
hmmmm

pharmacy or mass communication??
i know i been two minds all these days. O.O
what to do, i need someone to talk to. but no one seems to hear me.

2011-01-10T11:11:00.000+08:00

i should write more!! LOL.

sister went for hotel management training in Melaka ad,in Majestic Hotel. Very nice 5 star hotel but i heard from her that the accommodation for the stuff is bad enough, they have got no TV or even internet facility. hmmm

saturday went to edu fair with CY in KLCC, went and listen for the career talk about dentistry and Journalism. funny thing is im not really interested in both of it. well, a bit, to be honest. i dont think i wanna go and major in journalism,perhaps i should go for psychology? hmmm, i have many options can choose from many many colleges, i mean the course. but im now really lost. wanted to go for the gene code test but my mom said it will cost a few hundred. O.O so i dontknow. i did research for mass communication for every collage, but found out that mass communication is mostly major in journalism. well, im only wanted to major in PR and advertising, so should i just go to the course that major in both 2? hmmm.

im just a bit lost, i talk to my dad, but he just listen and not really give much opinion. maybe he just want me to do what i want and what i like. hmmm.

most of you guys are working for part time job or already start college, im sort of working with my mom now. ok, i know that i been working with my mom all the time, not that i dont wanna work outside but seems like my mom needs more help from me than other people does. sometimes, you will be feel guilty for trying to make a decision.

just hope everything will be good and everyone is healthy. =D take care people! =D

2010-12-25T10:18:00.000+08:00

wow, is been a long time since i update my blog.
as u know that, the SPM is over, I got choosen for NS, which i dont know what badge I will be in. might be the 2nd or 3rd and it's IMPOSSIBLE to be 1st badge. hmmm

i really dont know what to do now. im going for mass communication degree in HELP most probabaly, but had to go through a foundation, i might just go for SAM, it's much cheaper and shorter time. feel kinda lost all this while, keep wondering what am i interested in, the salary after graduate and bla bla bla. so now im decided ad. hmmmm

since my dad dont wanna go KL and help me appeal for NS, im thinking to go alone. for those who are not choosen for NS, good!! u gotta enjoy life and im here stuck on how to appeal. hmmm...

im thinking to go work for 3 months, then go for NS, after that i will be doing my foundation and degree. hmmm. but i REALLY REALLY hope that i got the 2nd badge!! =DD

hahaha. HEY, IT'S CHRISTMAS MANN. im stuck here!! again!!1 in front of the comp. LOL. just because no transport, i cant go anywhere. the car instructor still haven call me for the 2nd car lesson.. hmmmm....

GOSH, everything around me now is so so GREAT. everyting haven done and im so F up.
but it's good that went for a trip. hmmmm

I should stop cursing ad. LOL. just hope life is getting better and better for me and everyone that i care. =D MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE! =D

2010-08-31T19:49:00.000+08:00

Dont let your sadness of your past and the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present.

i know it has been long since i update. life had been kinda boring cause u have to start to strike every nervers to get ready of your trials exams. me? not so expecting for the exams like last time. me still got a lot haven prepare. they said JPS paper will have leak, but this time i know i have to try myself. =D

holiday gonna spend in reading, memorising, and doing questions. maybe go out with friends and SHOPPING. yes yes, i need to go shopping, to destress. =D anyway, have to keep berusaha, in studying. grrr....

anyway,
i always cherish every moment when im with you. and this morning you said u love me alot till you think it's like a dream. it's unreal and it's really sweet cause u said that and dont u know it happened the same on me last time. especailly when i miss you so so much. all i can do it's just wait and wait. missing you it's the same like routine, have to do it everyday repeatedly. and i love you.

2010-07-23T20:18:00.000+08:00

i know there's been a really long time since i update. =DD
okok, I'm gonna start,

1. i pass my driving theory test, whee. and i haven get the L card, cause i haven even go for the almali thing.
2. my birthday had passed, =D well, thanks everyone for making it a day.
3. i think i got the msg that i'm chosen to attend NS, and now i still cant believe it's true. and people said it's good. perhaps.
4. yeah, now is monthly test and i just screwed up my 2nd paper, bio. damn u period!!
5. i dont know what else. hmmmm...

well, i know i had been telling myself not to stop loving, not to stop believing things. cause the more u love, the more u learn and u know yourself best. i never tot for getting hurt and get depress after something really big happened. i know there is a necessarity to know what's going to happen, the need to think ahead. but i don't like to listen all the crap that is not true. i believe in myself, what I'm feeling now is true. u can say I'm stupid, stubborn and totally out of my mind. well yeah, i AM. i know after this, im not gonna feel anything stronger and love even harder. it's like the first time u trying to finish one shoot of whiskey at one go, and the second time, u got used to it. =DD it's cool. =DD

ok, i know i crap a lot. i been going through a lot nowadays. i know exactly why and how is that feel about what u feeling now. i went though that, trust me. u know i cant really treat everybody equally. I'm kinda tired of caring what's the aftermath when i did this to u or i did that to him. i cant control that. i tot u will understand. you know how hurt is that for me when i see those tears rolling in his eyes when u did that? i never see him like that before. i just don't know what to say.i tried to apologize but i think sorry doesn't really make u feel better. make it up? i dont know how. it's never gonna be the same.

2010-05-31T21:31:00.000+08:00

erm, what to say? exams are pretty useless actually. not to say i screwed up my whole exam, but it's like getting all the tips from everywhere make me feel like it isn't a exam, more like a qiuz. no? LOL..

well, i still got 5 papers to go. chinese paper got two, paper three for all the science subjects then the mid term exam is over. pheww. what to say? i'm really looking forward to my holiday. gotta stay at home till i get very very bored. =DD yeah yeah, this holiday don't plan to go out so much like the last holiday. dont know. see la.

if u could have notice, i got kinda serious PMS. no?? let me tell you something, i get very frustrated with my parent exspecially my dad. dont want to talk about it any further. in school, i barely talk to people, more like anti-social. LOL. not to say make fun or laugh like a mad people in class. == totally no mood okie??

whatever la, just pray hard the chinese paper wont be hard. hmm hmmmmmm....
ps. seriously Jess, if you have to do this to me, i dont mind and i dont care now. whatever i wrote on the last post, it's for you. you're welcome.

2010-05-28T19:49:00.000+08:00

i really don't like people pretend everything is ok when it's not. i believe that, if you got the heart and wanted to tell me everything or anything, i would not have to ask and even beg to know it. i do care about u, care about you a lot, so please dont do this again. if u say u are totally fine i will believe you, cause i trust you. the next time, if u dont wanna tell what happen to you when i forced you, i'm over it, i'm done.

sometimes i just wondering, everything that i do to, do you really have to judge and give a sarcastic treatment for me? i deserve that? really? we all know that, everyone sees that, you are not happy about what i said, but seriously? if u are not happy with it, go fine someone and get over it. c'mon, i can stand it when u do it once, twice or maybe not so often. but u are doing it over and over again every time i tell u what really happening between US. if you're not happy or satisfy with it, then you dont have to show it to me or perhaps i should have stop telling things to you. all you have to do is listen, i didnt expect you to judge. just imagine la i tell you something even more and even u cant expect. i can know your reaction after i tell u that.

agree with me JHEK? you know EXACTLY who am i talking about right? =D

i believe that u know me, after so long. u should have know. i hate it when you started something and never wanted to finish what u have started. for instance, a conversation? didnt u realised that?

i don't like it when u are in ur unusual confident which make me wanna slap u. seriously. and the way talking to my friends, that's so damn fake, if u wanna look down on someone, just go ahead and never talk to him ever again, that's the rules. try to imagine, if u look down on someone and u talk to him like nothing happen, try to imagine what he will feels.

ps, somewhat i do think i should think about it, maybe i do the same as the person. no offence. but just telling.
ps, i do mind being left out alright, i do mind.

2010-05-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

this is really good okie?!! try to listen to it. i know you're bored calvin, just listen to this. =DD if u can be so leng zai like them, i sure want u one. =DD ahahahaha

2010-05-14T22:47:00.001+08:00

alright, today is quite a interesting day.

we celebrated Pn Bong's birthday, our favorate teacher in the school, leng lui also. =DD she's out bio teacher and also temporary math teacher when Pn Normala go to hospital. when Pn Normala is back we actually ask Pn Bong to teach us math.=DD anyway, she is a great teacher.

Sue Ching brought the camera to school for teacher's birthday and also for our school magazine for our class page i think. took kinda lot of funny picture. i dont know why i do those faces, i look so damn retard ok?! LOL

anyway, after that went to the QM thing to set up the tents for teacher's day but obviously im not doing work but lepak and start complaining about the Poh Poh(teacher). ish

after school went to the servey thing with waiyan, well, had a interesting talk about radio. but more like comparing Hitz fm and fly Fm, which one is better. O.o yeah. have fun thou. yeah, u can have fun and u can earn money at the same time. wheeee.. thanks waiyan. =DD

kinda tiring day la. very lazy to talk to people, text also lazy. but i got mood to blog thou. =DD

ps, sometimes, you just have to make it out of sight and out of mind if u cannot get that thing that u want. too forcefull will only hurt no one but urself. D=

ps, go facebook for more photo.cause somehting wrong with blogger i cant upload photo. sorry people. =(

2010-05-11T21:50:00.000+08:00

有时候，爱真的很辛苦..

2010-05-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

ok ok. since our beloved Mr.Calvin Chee ask me to update my blog, so i have to. cause i owe him.

anyway, today krystle birthday. sorry my friend, i cant go for the dinner although u asked me so many time. IM SORRY. i feel so bad wei. D= anyway, hope krystle have fun today and get over the jackass.

i just realised that the earring i wearing spoiled ad. the diamond(of course fake one) drop ad. ahh. that's my 1st earring and it has to end up like that. T.T ok. i know i'm stupid, but i like it so much. T.T

erm erm, yeah. exam is two weeks away from now, and i still going out every sat. this week is get to make new friends, hopefully they are friendly. Opps, no offense. =x next week is Pik Sue birthday celebration. wow. crazy wei. i dont think exam is a good idea, remember i wrote i'm looking forward to exam? well. i still think so although i'm not prepared for it.

this blog is no more writing about my feelings, cause i know i can hurt people easily. Smart People!! go find it out urself, or come and ask me. =DD

that's all lu. Dah happy Mr. Calvin??

2010-04-27T12:43:00.000+08:00

wheee~~!!! skip school today~! =DD btw, sorry about the very poser's pic, but i like it. =DD blame it him, =P

well.nothin much to say, school has been exhausted, need a break. hmm hmmm... everything is fine i guess.. so what else i have to say? D=

oh oh, i cant wait till school holiday, i already planned to hang out with my friends. =D SWIMMING~!!!! =DD

i dont think i can go out on sunday, sorry krystle, cant go celebrate ur birthday tim. =X

nothing more to say, bye people~!!

p/s my tumblr is alive again. =DD

2010-04-18T16:51:00.000+08:00

alright, everything is alright..

well yeah, as u can see in facebook, i mean those photo, we celebrate our SUM SUM gor birthday yesterday in manja court. it's kinda fun actually. next time i go there i really need to go night swimming there, it's so nice(i mean the pool).

still got another 4 to 5 weeks will be mid year exams, which is a standardise paper. MEANING?? die of course. i didnt really prepare for it. i mean i haven start study physics, sejarah, bio, and a lot more. have to start doing revision already. gambateh eh~!!! HMMM

u know what guys? i have been going out like every Saturday. like EVERY Saturday tau!! after tuition go for a movie or something. good thing? i have no idea actually. anyway, i don't think people have to understand this. so whatever.

alright, nothing to update actually. nothing much to say.
"we are friends, we don't judge, remember? so tell me what happened."- Gossip Girl

2010-04-04T21:32:00.000+08:00

Dont make promise when you happy;
Dont make decision when are angry.

stay calm.
mind your words, what you had said to me.
i remember everything, cause it hurts till the very end.

is been a difficult week. tomorrow is another week.
i wont be the same like i used to.
being crazy like a super fucked up bitch.
not anymore.

i been telling and talking to people but still i dont feel any better.
well, yeah. a little better.
thanks people. espesially u, jon. really really appriciate that, thanks. =)

matethephobia, yes. i think i'm having it. but i will get thorugh that soon. very soon..

ps. a little more understanding, a little more feeling sorry about what u had said to me, will be better. i'm trying to do that too. think back and look back what u had said to me, in details, u will know how much it hurts when i do the same thing on u. i'm trying to picture what happen if u do the same thing that i did to u also, and i'm truely sorry. i love you, now and always.

2010-03-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

ok, this is what i got from Jane's blog, nice. read it and enjoy. =DD

From an Old Woman to a Young Woman

1. You are not a victim. No matter what happens to you, don't take the pussy route and blame the world for your misfortune. If you were sexually assaulted, verbally abused, etc and lived to tell about it; take your pain and help those who need it. Writing emo poetry isn't going to solve anything.

2. Invest in your education first, your looks second. Anyone can pay a plastic surgeon to look hot, but not everyone can read a book and do simple math.

3. No matter what you call it, having a 'man to take you shopping' is glorified prostitution. He wants you for your body, you want him for his wallet. Cut the crap and call it what it is.

4. Do not seek confidence in other people. Magazines, celebrities and most pop influences are there to make you feel like you're nothing. Don't buy into it. Those celebrities need your money to look fabulous. Invest in yourself, not hype.

5. Stop fueling gossip mongers [Perez Hilton, TMZ.]. They have nothing to talk about and if you follow them for long, neither will you.

6. Be modest; why have all your goods unwrapped and leave nothing for the imagination?

7. Know the difference between fucking and love. There is a major difference and if you don't know it, pick up a book or ask someone who does.

8. Do not have children just because you're lonely or insecure. Your child will end up hating you for it and you won't get the emotional blanket you hoped you'd get.

9. Get a job. Seriously. Just because you're a woman doesn't mean that you are excused from work. Find a trade, get a job. If you are a house wife, be a good one. If you are a career woman, put your heart into what you do.

10. A respectable companion is rarely at a 'bar' or da club'. These places are meat markets and will only set you up for a douchebag or a wimp. If you go, refer to rule 7.

11. Learn to cook. Cooking is a dying skill that needs not be. You'd be surprise how much weight you lose and how you can get a decent companion if you know more than picking up a phone and calling for dinner.

12. Get off your phone. If it's not your best friend, your job or your family, your cackling is not important and the rest of the world does not want to hear it. Listen more. Talk less.

13. Stop putting so much of your money into things [purses, shoes, make up] and start putting it into a savings account, a 401k or an IRA. Those shoes are not going to vest when you turn 65.

14. Stop using men to get you stuff. Have some self respect and buy your own drinks, meals and entertainment. A date will respect you more if you show them you are not helpless.

15. Perfume and baby powder does not make up for good hygiene. Shower, do your laundry, clean your place. Body odor is not excusable for either genders.

16. If you are a Lesbian, respect yourself and stop trying to find acceptance in the world. 9/10 they will not accept you. Tell them 'fuck you' and be your own woman.

17. If you are a Lesbian, you are not anymore special or important than anyone else. You love other women and you have that right, but do not flex your preference thinking it makes you unique. Your mind and experiences make you unique, either gay or straight.

18. Buy clothes that fit. Be tasteful with your clothing be you big or small.

19. Don't eat for comfort, vomit to make yourself beautiful, and starve yourself to feel loved. Exercise, be sensible with your food choices, don't deprive yourself but never eat too much. The quickest way to a size 30, and to the grave, is past your teeth.

20. If they say the love you, ask them to earn your heart through good deeds, genuine kindness and respect.

21. Romance is not dead; but if you're not willing to give it, don't expect it in return.

22. Stop being a bitch to other women and other people. If you are not happy, go get therapy. No one deserves to be berated because you don't have the guts to berate yourself.

23. Do something new every day. Pole dance to learn about your sensuality, paint to express your creativity, write a blog to express your soul. Evolve and never stop learning.

24. Look in the mirror everyday and smile at what you see.

25. Stay safe. Learn to defend yourself against one or multiple attackers. Jackals do not attack if they see a big stick. If all else fails, run. There is no shame in running if it keeps you safe.

26. Love yourself. Always. When you love yourself to the fullest, the world will open with opportunities

ps, hey no 26 is IMPORTANT!!

2010-03-14T09:51:00.000+08:00

1ST day of holiday~!!! wheee..

people, this is just the 1st day of holiday. i know i'm going to have more fun during this holiday. yesterday went meeting and watch movie. suppose to go tuition also but when i reached KFC, i saw Kelly and Yan dress till VERY HOT. YES~!!! knowing they all also going to watch movie. LOL. it's funny when we 3 dressed like that without telling each other, well, only i dont know. ==

anyway, darling text ed and said his his bought him signature's ticket. i was like wth?!! dont know why lu, feel so paiseh. =< anyway, darling go and get another 2 ticket for yan and kelly also, also signature de, we go watch alice in the wonderland. LOL..

meeting is basically nothing, crap alot. LOL. go maddie's blog then u will know. LOL.
after meeting, we straight go midvelly. 1st thing we do is go carefour, buy lock for scout den, no life kan?! LOL. anyway, after that we went to garden. buat pe? go toilet and cam whore. i know, GIRLS. wahahahahhaa...

then meet darling then go have lunch then go watch movie. hehe. missed alot of the story tho, nvr mind, i dont plan to watch again. hahaha. u know why missed alot la. blek.

oh yeah, there is one girl went to Yan and asked where she bought her boots. she stop there and chat with her, then kelly come to darling and I, tell us what happen. kelly said : 'The girl telling Yan she like her BOOTS' darling heard this 'the girl telling Yan she likes her BOOBS' so FUNNY,wahahhahaa, cant stop laughing ad. LOL.

well, basically, WE HAD FUN~!!!! =DDD
it's a special outing exspecially with BFF and also babe.
i just realised i didnt take pic with darling yesterday. LOL.
p/s let's make another tissue wet again. =DD

2010-02-25T21:11:00.000+08:00

you know i love you guys a lot. like a lot, a lot.
especially you, Wai Yan,Kelly, JHEK, Jon Chuah, Pik Sue, Sit Wai, Chi Kuan and so much more. of cuz u too MCCY. =DD

2010-02-19T20:58:00.000+08:00

you know, you do have the abilities.

u got the ability to make me smile, or even laugh when you with your wide smile on the face.
u got the ability to make to make me believe in every words u said. when i look in the eyes that never lie.
u got the ability to make me cry when it does hurt a lot.
u got the ability to make me cry when u did or said something sweet. (bet u didnt know that. something new?! LOL.)
u got the ability to make things feel right when you're around.
u got the ability to make me miss you like crazy and everything that i do, reminds me of you, cant get u out of my head.
u got the ability to break my heart, but please dont ever try.
u got the ability to earn more and more trust from me. so dont make me stop believe in you.

you should have know. you're great.

p/s, i love the gift. it makes me cried, it's totally sweet. dont worry the tears drop from the right 1st. =DD
yes, i love you too.

2010-02-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

happy Chinese new year people!!!

alright I'm going Thai tomorrow. coming back on the 4th of Chinese new year. i need more angpau, and guess what?! Sheng Hao just pm me and said he got over 500 of angpau. yer yer yer. wth?! u treat ur senior like this, share ur angpau money with me!! LOL. wish me have fun in Thai. hmmm

oh yeah, let u guys see something. i just found some old photo when i went to my uncle house.

i just know that, the woman siting one is my grandmother. the one standing beside one and all those i dont know is who. but look like my dad. what to do, i didnt even see my grandparents before. ahahahah..

alright, have to go now. oh yeah, visit this. http://snowieangel.tumblr.com/ my tumblr. currently addicted to it. LOL.

tata~!! gonna miss u all. =DD

2010-02-12T22:09:00.000+08:00

In love with what I'm into now.

i think the interact club, Leo and CF were selling stuff in conjunction with the valentine's day. they are selling cupcakes, roses with some message, chocolate and so on so forth la.

i got one very nice cupcake from our beloved SUM SUM. btw krys, the cupcake is nice and beautiful. but reminds me of something else. Santa santa remember this?! u be my santa on my last christmas and give me all i ever i wanted from u. this valentine's day, i want u to me my one and only valentine. =DD you know you love me very much. wahahhaaha.

anyway, WONG MUM SUM what's with this??! huh?
yes, this -->>

happy MOTHER'S day? can't u just write, happy valentine's day and u love me?! LOL. i know u do. jgn care la ur gf, Adeleine marah or not la. LOL LOL. am i that old to u??! argh!!

btw, happy chinese new year and happy valentine's day. =DD

2010-02-06T18:59:00.000+08:00

*cough cough cough*

alright, fell sick. funny thing is people tot i bo song when they look at me, but actually i'm just no mood and tired, dont wanna speak. what to do? face problem. and even today Pn Poh went IN to scout den and have so called a MEETING, and i keep talk back and showed the face. YES, i'm tired of the school teachers bullshit and i wanna SLEEP ok?! why come and kacao me?! gosh..

skip

merens desa, still the same as last year, but this year they put me in school for duty. having the 7 girls in my group. helped teacher to set up the ending point. but mostly do nothing. i still prefer going out to checkpoints and look at the runner run till exhausted and cheer for them.=D anyway, it's fun. but the QM shirt is TOO BIG!!

after that, celebrated ish birthday. blindfolded him to the class and 'surprise' him. i think he knew it. anyway, the food is nice but i only can eat cucumber. since that's all heaty food. but who cares, i still eat. haha. we going to celebrate kelly's birthday next.wahahaha. wanna see photo? go facebook. LOL.

i dont wanna get sick anymore, but i hate the pills so much. eh, which reminds me i didnt take medicine for lunch. wahhahaa.
hmmmm, addicted to sleeping?! hmmmm i think so. shit~!!

boy, thanks for being there when i need people to listen to all the problems. thanks for notice whenever i'm not alright, u always be the first and only one who knows when i am totally depressed. thanks for being there. u know who u are la. u know u love me. =D

ps, ah silly boy, dont u know u are totally loveable?! thanks for being there. =D and i miss you so so much. =(

retarded i know. LOL.

2010-02-05T12:37:00.000+08:00

wahahaha. i dont know why i post this but as u can notice, i wear all blue. =DD
alright, the fever strike too hard, got a little bit high now. LOL.

2010-02-03T13:15:00.000+08:00

ps, i miss you..

2010-01-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

MORE MORE MORE~~!!

alright, school is like school, life is more than life. dont know what the hell i'm talking about now.

more gossip in school, wheee. shhh, can not tell evryone. LOL. telling everyone punya orang is seriously baka(stupid)!! seriously wei, girls, can u imagine if that 'women' knows exactly what happen to me?! she will be like shouting infront of the computer then to the school, to me, to everyone, to the Block L, then to the Block A, B, C then back to Block L again?! LoL. somewhat i just cant wait to see her reaction when she know the truth. *evil laugh*

i am just got a little crazy after the fever, i dont know what happen la. got high ad. till now also can't stop. wheee.

i dont wanna go for vacation again la. i'm trying to convince my dad not to take me, be tot of what he will react after i ask him then i dont want to ask ad. i'm trying k honey, but.. ARGH!!!

hmmm, i just cant wait for a lot of things!!

ps. you are not the only one, if u continue like this, u cant blame me for doing the same thing like her. *i'm serious*
ps. it hurts so bad for asking more, just because u have to ask from it.
ps. i really hope u can pop out of no where to appear in front of me, cause i miss you so damn freaking much. T.T

2010-01-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

i dont know what i should said and do now. i'm damn bloody tired about everything. EVERYTHING.

can i just give up the job of sect ah? seriously damn freaking tired tau. just thank god my eyesight still remain perfect. the registration, the reports, the minits. all these all these. wtf wei. i need to study la. imagine u have only saturday and sunday to rest, and for revision, and u end up doing reports. WTF. i wish i can step down early. gosh

just wanna make it clear. is either u guys dont tell me about all that, or u guys dont critisize on it. it's non of ur fucking business rite?! this is seriously pissing me off. it's like indirectly insulting and humilating us u know?! it's that hard for u to leave it that way, and let us deal with it?! if u really got a better suggestion to make it better, please go ahead, or not just fuck off. u guys just making it worst.

i dont wanna compare, cause i know i'm making enough effort but things just doesnt work out. u have the luck ok?! we all know. so stop showing me all these bullshit.

ps, i need you so so badly. where are u now darling?! >..<

2010-01-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

**scream** tomorrow is monday AGAIN! =(

alright i have to chill. i really need a break. school is tiring, tuition is tiring because school it's after school. scouts is more tiring cause more reports are coming, more complain is coming, more plans to go. house is getting more quite, the dog doesnt bark, i dont know why. sisters not at home. hmmmm

oh yeah, went time square with yan that day. sue and kelly actually joining us one, but seems like Mr. Ong dont let and sue sick jor. then left only us lu. we had fun thou. somewhat i'm kinda kesian those boy friends have to accompany their girl friends to shop. cause that's damn freaking alot of shop and imagine the girl went in every shop and look look look then still cant find the one she likes. LOL. ur leg can patah i tell u.

now i seriously find out that i got alot of new shirt. my mom is going to kill me if she open my closet. cause i tell her i got nothing else to wear, so i have to go shopping. wahaha.

gosh, tomorrow i am going to see the stupid Mr.NG.i wan Pn. Rema eh. shyt, means have to go for physics tuition again and thank god is Chong Haw teaching in Saturday. WHEEE.

my mom is like asking me to stop taking so much tuition. and my dad is forcing me to Mr. Kumar which is the tuition i wan to stop. == dont know what's going to happen when SPM is near. now already exhauted, imagine SPM. CAN DIE wei.

that day teaching my sis add math and i realised i forgot most of it!! have to do more ad, have to find more time for it. GOSH, i got alot to study!! (stress myself too much??)

CNY?! i just wanna stay at home wor. NICHOLAS CHENG WEI ERN!!! u better fetch me go everywhere as u had promise ah.. i dont wanna take bus ad. and i still dont know if i'm going for trip or not, with all the relatives?? gosh, i really wanna take a break eh!! =(

alright, breath breath breath!!! and i wanna sleep ad. good night people.

2010-01-12T21:27:00.000+08:00

有时真的希望可以任性一点，
可以不要明白一切一切，

也许你会心疼我一些
会在乎我多一些？

以为你会懂...

真的是犯溅！！

T-T

2010-01-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

I feel tall. LOL.

gosh, seriously?! my face went red when i'm scolding the juniors?! SERIOUSLY?! damn wei. anyway, i have fun when they are having post mortem. =D

and today suppose to have tuition at 11 then suddenly change to 12 jor. like what the hell. and the tutor is super funny, but most of the time i dont know what the hell he's saying. he got big eyeS. O.O and waiyan was like if he gets taller, i really wanna date him, he's so damn cute. LOL.
the little girl in the tuition centre, so cute. LOL.

after that went and watch movie in mid. cause waiyan SUDDENLY said wanna go, so yeah. sorry sue. =D then after that went to the exhibition hall, there got chocolate fair, some wedding fair and also promoting cars one. i forgot to ask my sis to go for t, she loves chocolate. LOL. anyway, we are like the youngest people who went into the wedding fair, so it's like so damn weird, everyone is looking. LOL.
whee~!! so nice. but i dont want. alot of colouring. LOL.

BTW, i really hope that we can have another girls talk wei. Friday was absolutely FUN!! WOMEN!! remember the potato?! wahahahhaa. love you guys lot.

PS, gosh, it's not good thing to tell ur BFF the truth cause they will keep remind me of U. dang. U happy rite?! urgh..
PS, i can't stand U, 'cause everything U do make me wanna smile. =D
PS, erm erm, i am being nice in the beginning, but it's just getting annoying u see. cant u just leave me alone?! i mean obviously I'm not interested or even understand what the f*** u saying, so just drop it and FUCK OFF.

2010-01-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

well yeah,

school started like 2 days ago?! everything is ok, quite expected. but i wasn't ready for the big crowd. i mean imagine the whole school including form one and form2
gather and fit into the dewan bakti. like WTF?! alright, that's for the 1st day la. i was quite high before get into class. keep banging Zi Meng like hell, whee.. that's so fun!!

anyway, 2nd day is okie. can say boring lo. i tell u, i can seriously sleep in the chemistry class. the MR.ThanaWHATEVER is the other MR.NG. trust me, he is. erm, at least he used the slide projector instead of the computer on the 1st day. but the second day expected, he using the laptop. == can seriously fall asleep with his SWEET sound wei. LOL.

well, tomorrow is going to be so BUSY. after school got meeting, maybe till 3 something reach home at 4.30 or maybe 5? then 6 got tuition, till 7.30. after that need to travel to another place for tuition again and also dinner of cuz. start another tuition at 8 till 10.30. gosh, i dont know i can handle that or not.my friend can do the same last year then why i cant?! so yeah, need to try 1st lu. =D

then thursday got the stupid koko meeting, dont know till what time. urgh!! when waiyan heard got free food she is like asking maddie she can go or not. that girl ah. seriously?! if she wanna replace then replace me la. i dont wanna go la. ish ish.

Friday, got meeting with the juniors again. yeah all. so for those who read this please be in the tapak by 12.45pm. i am going to scold kao kao. alright, joking only. u will know la. anyway, if dont have meeting, i will be watching movie with Zi meng they all ad. T.T

URGH, so damn busy.

ps, boy,i went through the same thing like u do now. so just stay calm and enjoy all this u know, later u are going to miss this feelings. i am always there for u. =D
ps, the boy is not u, so dont be perasan silly boy. LOL =P

2010-01-03T13:54:00.000+08:00

new yeat eve?!
spent time with family. i dont know why my eldest sister dont wanna go with us, instead she is having cheese cake at home infont of her computer. we tot she will go out with her bf tim. ah ah. whatever. LOL.

alright, we pergi station one. i dont know why, my mom likes the place so much. yeah, online there and also had Heineken there. wheee. gosh, i seriously realised i drink alot these days. WAHAHHAA.

erm erm, nothing special la. just chat with friends online half way heard the fireworks sound. LOL. only realised is 2010. then the live band there started countdown late. well, a few min late. can see the firework clearly from the restaurant, cause it's near The Curve. so yeah.

ah, i dont know what to write ad. whatever la, no mood jor. =(

pics>>>

they are posing, erm, act like after fight. LOL.

yes, the bear bear they gave and HEINEKEN <3

firework. my cacat phone camera. D=

2009-12-31T12:29:00.000+08:00

tag by Izzul, dont wanna do it on Facebook cause it's so troublesome. LOL.

Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the fibs alone. Then, "stab" 5 people to do the same test.
But, if you don't know how to bold/italise...then just answer in the way you usually do.

Miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe that honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse.
I have changed mentally over the last year.

I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe , free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.

I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I'm currently single.

I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.

I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.

I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.

I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.

Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules. Because it's beautiful.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.

I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I somehow enjoyed this thingy!
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.

I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

stag list
Waiyan
Jonathan Hong
Chun Keen
Maddie
Chee Yoong
Yuen Yee

2009-12-31T11:07:00.000+08:00

BEBE, IT'S LAST DAY OF 2009!!

well, i woke up quite early today. my sister keep going in and out of the room, the door keep close and open. make me cant sleep. well, she is busy dressing up for her outing. =D.

when i opened my eyes, the sunlight shine through the window like how it use to be, but i don't feel the same anymore. i used to feel so grateful, so happy cause it's going to be a good day. cause u will be there. BUT BUT BUT, no but.

alright, today last day of 2009.
i just cant wait for the vacation tomorrow~!! need to shout at the sea, need to swim the whole morning and noon, need to play squash with my sister, need to have more fun!!
need to forgive and forget~!!!

later i am going to study. yeah, study. chemistry!! i dont even touch school book this holiday wei, feel so damn weird. LoL. so so later gonna study like hell, hopefully can la. >..<

last day of 2009, i got no plan. anyone wanna go for movie or something?? i dont wanna stuck at home. T.T oh boy, take me out!!!
anyway, people, have fun tonight!! =D

2010.. i hope...
i hope can get good result for SPM of cuz. that one mesti can one la. blek.
i hope can seriously found where should i go after SPM. gosh, i really got no target for that wei, so lost. help ME!!!
i hope i can get more independence and without getting lost in the mall. >..<
i hope i can get more new friend. blek
i hope i can be more open to people, well, i am trying now. haha. no more anti social. LOL.
i hope i can really handle stress! cause next year gonna be a busy year.
i hope i can find a REAL and good doctor. *hopefully* T.T
i hope i can find someone who always be there for me.
I JUST WANNA BE REALLY HAPPY IN 2010~!!

PS, take a deep breath my dear, everything will be fine, and it will be. BREATH~~
ps, I miss the way u make me smile, i miss the way u make me happy like u used to be. i dont know what happen, i really dont know.

2009-12-25T17:17:00.000+08:00

wheeee~~!!! CHRISTMAS OUTING

alright, went out with Wai Yan and Szi Wei today. nothing much la.
waited for the stupid bus for more than 30 minutes?! then reached there i was shocked that the mall is crowded. just dont feel comfortable.

i'm just too bored while waiting. LOL.

met Szi Wei in MPH then went to Jusco. Szi Wei taught me how to choose shirt. wahahaha. funny wei, i just consider the length of the shirt and not the length of the sleeve. LOL.

after that just crapping in the restaurant when having brunch. Brunch or breakfast? i dont know. just know that i just have honey lemon tea, cause i am damn full that time.=D

when we waiting for the food, Wai Yan opens her birthday present.I suppose to give her yesterday but just cant make it there.=D sorry for the late present! tak kan i bring that to camp rite?! LOL. just thank god she loves the present. I love you my dear~!! =D

trying on her present, i know she's gonna love it. wahahaha

after that we went and watch ALVIN and the CHIPMUNKS. Theordore is so adorable!! somewhat it look like santa, i mean the body. wahahhaa. then then then when and walk around after the movie. went and buy present. and u know Szi Wei is like damn sian there see us walking around when we went into Vincci. LOL. and tell u what, Vincci is full of people. well, everywhere is full of people. scary.

then we went MPH again, cause i remember i need to get something. wahahhaa.

in MPH, gosh, he is TALL~!!!

this is hard to find meh? i foound it in MPH. never mind Santa, if u wanna choose the other one also i dont mind. =D

oh yeah, did i mention the promoter outside the mall is annoying?! urgh, i shouldnt have look at them that time. came and talk non stop, i am rushing! cant u see?! LOL.
just had a pretty nice outing today. Merry Christmas people.

PS, damn, i am good in remember small and useless stuff. gosh. consider observant or what? =.=''

2009-12-24T15:58:00.000+08:00

Baby, u know it's Christmas eve?? IT'S CHRISTMAS EVE!!!

alright, this morning i woke up by a phone call, wonder who the hell is that. then got bath and get ready to school, yeah school. MEMBERSHIP DRIVE people!! and it's Christmas eve. =.=

i am on my way to school then Shau Yuan called, asking me am i coming or not. guess what?! that's only 9.10 and I'm already outside the school. i planed to come at 9.30, imagine i do so, he will be keep calling. =.=

well, nothing much lo. they all go gadget then i clean den lo, since really got nothing else to do. then when up and gossip with them. PEOPLE!! i got the prove that Szi wei likes to talk bad about people! wan me to prove it? i got the video for it. come come, i show u. LOL.

like posing rite?! LOL.

after that why bring OUT the frame. 4 kuching. and keep shouting only. LOL.after that they all went and take their PMR result. szi wei got 6 A, Shao Yuan got 7A(BRAVO)!, Hwa Hong got Straight As. ALVIN got 2A, wahahaha.

around 1 something people all went back ad, left Hwa Hong, Szi Wei and I. nothing to do, so wash fly sheet. LOL. went back home at 2.30pm. =.=''

alright, i will start crapping from now. here goes. LOL.
YOU KNOW?!
what i felt for u now, is totally hopeless! i shouldn't make expectation like i used to do. what i got next? more disappointment.i should i have know... u said u understand, the only thing u do is keep saying sorry. what's the point of that when u don't even know what u did wrong?! you see, i don't mind explaining but not right after everything. i know I'm being difficult, but...*i think u know*
BTW, it's not about her.

I should have know.

what u have to REMEMBER is today IS 24th of December, Christmas eve~!! have fun people.

tomorrow!! i'm going out with my besties!! i really need to go out, dont make me stay at home,or not i will be crazy~~!!!

p/s, It's the 4th time. FORTH!!! the 4th time i am trying to hold back my tears but eventually failed. NOT AGAIN! i'm done.
p/s, i'm kinda amaze that my eyes and nose not red when i look myself in the mirror. LOL. i'm getting pro of that already. whee.

just thank god tonight's phone connection is gonna jam jam jam like hell!! =D

2009-12-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

swing swing swing swing swing~~!!!!

alright, i am having mood swing now. erm, PMS much??! i guess, this few month punya PMS different wei, not got high ad. more advance, can feel heartache one. chunted rite? urgh!! it kills.

like now, i got pissed off, then feel heartache. later i guess i gonna cry myself to sleep. urgh. AGAIN. i think this happened last month. dang.

i'm going crazy sooner or later.

btw,
i like the scent. the smell is so YOU. so comfortable.
i tot it will be the same when i run my fingers in ur hair,
i tot it will be the same when we whisper to each other,
i tot is the same,but not really.
things changed. *glad that it changed*
but i still like the smell~!!
i'm gonna miss you

PS, when i tot of u, everything is ok, everything feels rite.
PSs, I wanted to be faithful, trying to.

2009-12-13T11:46:00.000+08:00

yes yes, my post became lesser and lesser. LOL.

wanted to blog so much but just dont know what to say. wanted to tell so much, but realized, is it matters?? wanted to tell but just dont know how to say.

i'm truly sorry. i'm sorry i am not that good in sharing feelings, not that good in telling things to my friends. i knew what i had became - keep everything to myself, trying to pretend i am ok when i am not, knowing that's really no point telling. not that i dont wanna share, i am not good in it. whatever la. me rite?! LOL. if u wanna know mai come ask me lo, dont expect me to tell u if it isn't something BIG and SERIOUS!! if u ask me, at least u can get the clear answer rite? so so, come and ask, i will be answer u. so please be smart enough to know whether it is a lie or not. LOL.

BTW, camp. SHYT the hell out of it!!!
urgh urgh urgh!!! enough. dont wanna talk/think jor. T.T

PS, crush?? not crush?? boy, u are just so adorable!!! what's with the stare with the beautiful eyes??

2009-12-07T15:04:00.000+08:00

where were you when I need u??!
*tears* *tears*

2009-12-04T14:44:00.001+08:00

2009-12-01T12:05:00.000+08:00

most people don’t know who they are, and that’s why they lie. they’re afraid someone else will find out who they are before they find out for themselves
by littleteaspoon

2009-11-27T23:17:00.000+08:00

i'm not alright
i'm not alright
i'm not alright
i'm not alright
i'm not alright

I'M NOT ALRIGHT!!!!!

2009-11-26T22:04:00.000+08:00

I WANT THIS!!!!

if u guys see this in any bookshop or library please tell me. i really wanna read it.
both my sister read it when i was 10. that time i wanted to read one but just cant. because the book cover looks scary. A CLOWN, my friend! A CLOWN!! yes yes, i scared of clawn, since i am a kid. i will run away when i see any. so shoosh.

okok go back to the topic. my sis bought the 2nd book of this series and didnt buy the 1st one. so i have to borrow. T.T so anyone who got this book please borrow me or tell me where i can get it. please!!!

2009-11-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

this is all about the china trip.

on the plane.

reach China and the next morning take bus to Xin Yi

in the bus, usually bus is sit one rite?! but this is different! sleep one. got bed some more. my cousin was like, wth?!

>my cousin.=D

nephew.(so cute) didnt he look like putting his hands on his heart?! LOL.

mommy and daddy.

after about 5 hours of journey, we reach Xin Yi.
we took this to the hotel, feels like Thailand. LOL.

this is so called my uncle in china.he is smoking with the bamboo. cool huh?!

the next day we go into the kampung.
the first thing we saw was..this

then after that we go sembayang. go to the grave and pray of course.
this is where my grandparents live be4 they went to Malaysia. that fella with the hat is my sis(i think)

on the way, we saw cow, my cousin in china own it. that child is so called my nephew. funny rite?! LOL.

when we pray :-

long time didnt see my dad laugh like that ad. =D

TO BE CONTINUE....

2009-11-18T12:14:00.001+08:00

you came into my life and turned it upside down, you flipped me around and showed me things i’d never known to exist. you taught me how to do things, i never believed i could do. and you reminded me that anything is possible. when my days were hard and sleeping was impossible, you were there for me at the strangest of hours, waiting and ready to comfort me. to make me laugh and just lay with me until i fell asleep, and to make up silly stories to make me smile on my journey to dream-land. but you came into my life as quickly as you left. and just as i was confused as to why i deserved you to begin with, i’m now laying in my bed, confused as to why i deserved to lose you. perhaps my “thank you” notes were too few, or my “i love you so much” phone calls were too scarce. this, i wish i knew, but fear i will never know. and now, i’m still unsure of where you went, and i’m unsure as to why you’ve gone there… but wherever you are, whatever you’re doing… i hope there’s someone beside you, making you as happy as i wish i could have made you. - by littleteaspoon.tumblr.com

2009-11-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

I tot everything turns out right.
Too bad that this would not last long.

I am so sorry
That i'm real,
Wanted to tell so much
But what is really matters here?

I am so sorry
For being not so playful enough
To lose in this game

I am so sorry
For being afraid,
Afraid of losing
Just because i always got what i want at the end.

I am so sorry
To take everything seriously;
I dont have much different
If i want to compare with her.

I am so sorry
That i am not sorry
About all the things i had mention just now.
Because that's the way i am.

Just felt truely sorry to myself,
That i am just so easy to be deceived by people.

PS, please dont talk to me about scouts stuff in this holiday. execpt for the COH member of course. thank you.
PS, i still believe in the secrets among the universe so i am not giving up.

2009-11-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAY ALREADY!!!

yeah, erm just went hang out with my girls yesterday. we had lots of fun. further info people go to pik sue's, waiyan's, or maybe sit wai's blog. lazy to talk about. cant forget the face when waiyan cant get the song to the right tune. LOL. and i cant forget the scene that the rich dude ask the car engine to start.(in 2010 movie). that's the funniest part of the movie. haha. u really have to watch 2010!! if u haven do so, please.

gosh, i am gonna have so much fun in this holiday. Daddy said we are going to a vacation again!! in Lumut, anyone?? u just have to pay for the transport and the food. the hotel is FOC.(very beautiful hotel)LOL.got very big swimming pool, very nice beach, can see the sunrise and bla bla bla... well, i am just saying it for fun. maybe going only. dont know yet. =D

and and and, everything is just stick with the plan. hey hey, this time my plan didnt go wrong. not even once. because my plan is------no plan. cool huh?! forgive me, i am in a really good mood! HAHAHA..

oh yeah, i just upload that for fun. i think waiyan u also agree with the statement rite?? =D

2009-11-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

2009-11-12T14:49:00.000+08:00

well, yeah exam is over.

i really dont take this final exam seriously wei. i mean i didnt study as much as i did in mid year. results will be better? i dont know, school is going to post it. yeah post it. if my dad got the letter and he ask why my results so bad i gonna bang him with the reason he forced me to china.

yeah, exam is over. plans??
plan to lepak at home, wanted to watch movie in my sis laptop but she set security code already, too bad. gonna work for my mom. then maybe go to camps. maybe. oh yeah PEOPLE!!! PLEASE SUPPORT BREAK-THRU CAMP!! there is only RM30 if u stay in school and not going to the jungle part. if u are interested please call any of the COH member pls. ur attendance is much appreciated. FYI, i changed my phone number already, if u wanna know please get it from me. dont ask why i change i am tired of answering this question. something new please.

i got a lot to say, but i dont know who i can tell and i dont know how to start.
this feeling started since yesterday. urgh. anyway, thanks for trying to made me feel better and made me calm down. sometimes, maybe u think that u could had done nothing, but then that really mean a lot to me. when u look me in the eyes and telling me everything is ok, i just felt a big relief. i am not saying thank you. cause i dont want us to repeat this situation again but i am glad that u did that.

is raining and i heard thunder. the next morning i will still see the stars when i look up to the sky, they shines made me felt relief, cause everything is still the same. =D

2009-11-07T22:04:00.000+08:00

exam exam exam.
just tried my best lu. i don't know.oh yeah, i will post some photo when in china after i finish my exam. =)

i am so grateful that u are always there when i need u. thank you. u are always there when i feel bad, when i am paranoid about some stuff, when i need someone with me.u always there anytime, anywhere. i will try to be happy like u. believe me,i am trying. i am happy,just that u didn't see. all i have to say is THANK YOU.

although u are not really helping, but at least u know what's in my mind just by a short time, at least i feel comfortable to tell u things, at least u made me smile when i am sad, at least u know u care. thank you. u know that i do 'LIKE' u.lol. u know who u are are la. =)

PS, i always being grateful about all my friends are with me. nothing special.=D
PS, perhaps this is the time for a long break?? i need a break. cause u are good in manipulating.
PS, i dont want to be paranoid,i hate being paranoid. so i want to be the one controlling. this is how much i can take.
PS, good thing about no strings and bad things about no strings is u don't have rights for EVERYTHING!
ps, i gonna figure out how the secret works. i gonna live with that, i am impressed about the law of attraction.

2009-10-21T20:15:00.000+08:00

erm, yeah.
i will be going to China on the 23th, friday about noon i suppose. coming back on the 31th, saturday, about 9 at night. i planned to go to study the next day, cause exam. BM and add math. Pn. Lean said i can retake the add math paper one again on monday. so yeah, need to study add math.

u know what's the funny part when i gave my letter for applying leave to teacher? she is like judging my family member's name. she said my mom and my sis name sounds like a guy. and i was like totally frustrated with it. wth wei!!!right. skip skip skip...

tomorrow gonna skip school again and go study in library. i dont know why, i just dont wanna go to school. study math and add math and i think after, that going to sunway with pik sue they all. hopefully they dont FFK, cause it's been a long time we didnt get together. T.T

now also dont know what the hell is happening to me. nothing in mind. when edward asked am i ok or not. i only realised how lost am i, lost till i dont know i am ok or not. i dont know. i cant think now. so yeah.

i think i should be study my Chemistry now.

PS, You’re my best friend and the most understanding person in the world, the only one that understands me the most, yet I can’t seem to tell you what’s on my mind.
PS, i shouldent have see u that day, u have no idea how i feel after that, it hurts.

2009-10-20T23:38:00.000+08:00

gosh, it is so damn hard.
I am sorry darling, I just cant let it go like this when we aren't talking this out.
I am sorry that I cant do it.
I tried, but I think I should have try harder
to be able to keep things out of sight, out of mind.

PS, already gone.
PS, u are just the way u are. how amazing it is can find u around me just by turning my head. i feel u around.
PS, this is all about u.

2009-10-13T15:17:00.000+08:00

some of u know that i will off to China this month rite?! hmm, is from the 23th to 30th. 7days. Chee Yoong asked then only i realized it is next week.

i haven apply for my leave to teacher yet, haven done settle the registration stuff. haven done the camp stuff. haven do revision yet.a lot of stuff haven do. and guess what?! my exam starts at the 26th i guess. so i will be skipping 4 days of exam means 8 papers. since Pn. Rema said, 2 papers for 1 day.LOL. good thing?!

dont feel like going lar, but that's like a family trip, i mean a BIG family trip, is gonna be so fun to play with my cousin's children.LOL. come back then exam. like what the hell wei?! study in the plane. study when boarding?!! screw that damn final exam larr..T.T

screw that test!!! gosh, at least la give me the damn time table for exam, so that i know what i no need to study. just hope the 1st few paper is BM, Sejarah, and Moral. ish ish.

why my school wanna make that exam so late, u know i was happy and excited about the final exam?! i know i crazy, but seriously. i am excited about that final, i wonder what's the different u know. ish ish ish!!!! ruining my year plan only. urgh!!!

anyway, i know i will be missing u guys. Wai Yan dont worry i will bring back what u want. that one u can't live without de. see la my dad wanna bring it back or not. weee.

2009-10-12T22:41:00.000+08:00

Rather than talking so much,

Remain silence.

Rather than thinking too much,

Tune into your feelings.

Untroubled

and

at ease,

Try to wait without making a note.

Try to trust without making a decision.

2009-10-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

i dont know what to say.
seriously, speechless.
but i am feeling a lot. a lot.

so i am asking myself, do it really matters?!
i can't say 'no, it doesnt matters at all.'

2009-10-07T15:26:00.000+08:00

Having neither to weigh thoughts nor... measure words, but pouring them all right out, just as they are, chaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away. - a quote by Dinah Craik

PS. who do u think i write this to?! (perasannya)
PS. thanks for doing that, made me realized i ain't insane now.
PS. i dont mind if u continue like that, i got more time for myself. =D
PS. i dont know why i love writing PS.now. haha. LOL. is getting quite annoying, i know.

2009-10-05T14:49:00.000+08:00

hmm, yeah mooncake festival is like saturday rite?

so so, in the morning, second fetch me to waiyan house and guess what?! we almost took like 1 hour in the traffic jam. tell u why there is a traffic jam near the skypark. cause there was a flight rehearsal then a lot of people park their car on the fly-over-bridge. they just PARK there!!! WHAT THE F**CK WEI.

then never mind, reach waiyan's house then we straight go sunway and meet jon. kesian him, need to wait for us like almost one hour. T.T after that manage to watch G-force..wakaka.

after that, go back to waiyan's house. her mom's cooking is so damn nice. almost like my mom one.haha. then 'celebrate' mooncake festival there.LOL.

the next day, wakaka. woke up, then see the girl still sleeping with a lot of pillows with her. i think she like the weight of the pillows on her. haha, funny la. then after that go waiyan's mom there and have breakfast or so called brunch.haha. the mee is nice!!

then guess what?! we go mid after that and watch the movie Tsunami..HAHAHA.. after we got the ticket, we go MPH. guess what?! we found one pretty good book. i forgot what's the book called. Angel's message?!! something like that. that is nice. but too bad, that's expensive.LOL.

after that, i straight go back home, lucky didnt follow second's car. if not, 5 o'clock only can reach home. siao. damn tired this few days.

holiday..WEEE... those who are having PMR, good luck to u!! and to those who having SPM trial also, good luck..=D

PS. is almost 3.10pm, still didnt hear a thing from u. dont really use to it.
PS. darling, dont got too happy cause u think u are pro in math, later got unexpected result then i will laugh at u. *evil laugh*
PS. i remember ur face again!! LOL.

2009-10-04T17:27:00.000+08:00

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, believing

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one.

2009-10-02T20:56:00.000+08:00

i'm in love with lomograhy again!

alright.

PMR is like next week, like i care?!got holiday again..WEEE.. still thinking how to spend the 4 days.

nothing to update much about school la. i just know that, this few days teacher not really come to school or enter class so the class like not so much student then is like all very boring and dull.

oh yeah, i remember already. that time we had like 4 free periods, cause Pn. Bong and Pn. Kokilum didnt enter class, so rare. haha. anyway, waiyan and i go library, then all the boys are like all ponteng to play football. then at the end they all come back and lepak in the library with waiyan and i. fail to ponteng class, just because teacher is standing near the door, so embarrassing wei. {chi yok}

then is Chemistry class. teacher gave one experiment that worth 3 marks in the final exam.we all are like keep on asking each other how to do that, cause we always din pay attention to the teacher. and i am quite surprise that i know how to do that and found out the answer. hopefully that's the correct answer lu.

great, i know these few days, a lot of things happened. maybe u guys didnt realized that, but never mind.

but just wanna tell this to all my BFF (u know who u are la), no matter what happen to u, we are always there for u. so dont feel bad to come to us,to express or even confess to us.LOL. although i know sometimes i am not really helping but i am trying.T.T at least can make u feel better?! hehe. i know what's that like when all things didnt come to order and really feel like breaking down, so go ahead to be emo, be sad or even cry in front of us, we are there for u. U worth the attention from us, cause u know u are the best we ever had. u know we love u. =D

anyway, that's been a long time i didn't look up to the sky and searching for stars in the morning. ever since i met u when the dim light shine on u.

p/s I do love u, but I want u to go. That's the best I can do. 'cause i love freedom more.
p/s I hate becoming a replacement! sometimes that really pissing me off.

2009-09-24T19:31:00.000+08:00

running, popping, and spinning.

suddenly i miss u so much.
the truth that u keep deny makes me stronger.
the things that i gave u,
u still keeping them in the place i want in to be.
is a sign, i know.
that is so sweet.

i miss everything.
i wanted to go back to the past.
at least the past is better than what i going through now,
i don't wanna face the reality.
i don't wanna face the fact.

just one night.
just give me one night to forget about all this bullshit.
just give me one more night not to face the matter of fact.
i will become stronger and feel better next morning.
i know i will..=D

i am not taking that risk,
cause i know that is not worth it.
u are not worth it.

i am letting it go if u really can realise that.

p/s thanks for giving me all this bullshit, making me think i am not the only one who did that. LOL. i don't hate u.
p/s thanks for being there all the time when i need u, my friend.u know who u are. thank you so so much. u know i love u guys. =D

2009-09-19T16:51:00.000+08:00

my holiday start on Thursday, went out with my BFF to celebrate my darling sit wai's birthday. we had a lot of fun. ahaha..

u guys can go to waiyan or sit wai's blog to see the photo,i odn t have the photo. i think waiyan will just post in facebook??! maybe. ahah.
i want the AGM installation's photo la. MADA! go and get from Quek. haha.too bad Sze wei dont have it.hmm.

anyway, today went out with Kelly and waiyan. we had girls talk in Starbucks for like 4 hours.haha. had fun wei seriously, can laugh. haha. and i cant believe i actually told kelly that thing in bus stop wei. that's bad that her bus came so fast. if not we can talk even more. haha. BTW, kelly, that isnt gonna be like that anymore, now is gonna change. i got my evil plan.WAHAHAHAHA. remind me to tell u that ok?!haha

we are gonna have another girls talk again rite?! haha. we will stay up until 2 to talk on Thursday..hahaha..

hmmm, this holiday is goona be busy wei seriously.
Monday need to study at home. hope can study la.
Tuesday need to go meeting. smart ass, go make the meeting so early.tak pe.
Wednesday, still thinking, library??
Thursday, meeting,squash, swimming and girls night! Hurray~~
Friday, erm erm erm maybe go watch a movie??! anyone??

gtg people.LOL

p/s i do hope u are being honest with me all the time. easy??
p/s i decided not to be the victim, so i am fighting back! evil plan!!*good girl gone bad wei*

2009-09-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

偶而抬起头会看到无数颗星星
　　它守护着天空已经千万个世纪
　　生命里也存在一种类似的东西
　　那就是爱永恒的延续

　　only love 爱是我最美丽的原因
　　像空气自然而然就懂得呼吸
　　多珍惜我和你有的这种默契
　　传递心中的温暖和全世界分享
　　因为真爱存在
　
　　如果可以我想写段旋律给自己
　　别忘记脸上要用笑容盖过泪滴
　　我确定每一双单纯去爱的眼睛
　　说的故事会更加动听

　　only love 爱是我最美丽的原因
　　像空气自然而然就懂得呼吸
　　多珍惜我和你有的这种默契
　　传递心中的温暖和全世界分享
　　因为真爱存在

　　用爱去探索总能找到新的意义
　　我相信

　　only love 爱是我最美丽的原因
　　像空气自然而然就懂得呼吸
　　多珍惜我和你有的这种默契
　　就算未来还未知
　　记得把心打开
　　证明真爱存在

2009-09-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

On this day of your life, Yuet May, we believe God wants you to know...

... that nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome is going to be.

You keep wanting to know how things will play out, keep asking to see the future. God doesn't give anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to be alive means to not know.

above statement is what i copied from facebook. sometimes this really helping to lead me go through things.

not knowing what is gonna happen in the future so the only thing u can guess. knowing everything that will gonna happen will be a disaster, like only u can see and watch. so wat's the point knowing?

somehow, i also try not to plan everything, just follow what my heart, follow where it leads me to. sometimes i knew i had jump in to the conclusion that is actually not true, but i just cant help it.

felt totally hopeless and a little guilty. but i did listen to what waiyan said! ACCORDING TO THE LAW OF ATTRACTION in the book Secret, whatever u are thinking will happen in real life. if u think positive everything will turns out rite. but what if just hoping that happen, will it also happen since u think about that all the time?! that one waiyan didn't tell me. HAHA

this is the thing that we can not decide. Thank God.

2009-09-12T20:10:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i just don't get it.

wait, most of the time.

things changed faster than i can predict, i tot it can last like more than one day, but at the end can not. i was hoping just one more day?! i know i will ask for more but why not have a try?!

i don't know how i gonna handle this anymore, is like very step i am taking is just wasting effort. i m just trying to keep it simple but i think people still can feel that rite?! i did realised that.

i am still lost. fighting for a loosing battle is it?! great.

OK. guess what am i saying?!

tada!

i am saying i fail preserve the milk in the room temperature.

P/S pls come forward to know the real story.
P/S i twisted it.

2009-09-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

i am doing really good!!!
i am happy all the time right now!!!!
that thing doenst bothering me anymore.
so dont worry my friend!!

u know i can take care of myself, unlike u!!!!
so pls do remember what u had promise me.
trust me, i wont Forgive u if u Forget what u had promise.

dont worry anymore. i am doing allright.

peace..=]

2009-09-06T11:31:00.000+08:00

i dont know why,
i dont know how,
i dont think this is gonna work out the way i plan to be.

i dont know what the F***k happen to me,
i dont know why am i so lost now.
i think i am just too stupid
to BELIEVE everything is true.

but somehow, that DOESN'T make sense!!

believe it or not,
i tried a lot of method.
i tried to let it be hoping something change?! but things doesn't turn out that way.
i tried to ignore everything, but that just keep on distracting me.
i tried to face it but somehow i cant accept it.

so at the end i decided to GIVE UP.
EVERYTHING that is related to it.
i can not just keep doing that again
if not i am getting more used to it..URGH..

i dont know how much that's gonna hurt,
but i think that is beyond what i expected.

p/s suddenly i miss Yu Hong.T.T
and i am seriously feel like telling everthing to someone just to gain a hug..>0<

p/s i am not emo. just PMS(i guess)

2009-09-03T19:23:00.000+08:00

i do care about whatever u had said and i remember it. which i really hate it. i was trying so hard to hold back everything that might hurt myself but somewhat he told me to follow what my heart tell me.

i don't know this time is real or not, but it seems like i am the one who are waiting again..hmmm. somehow that's not worth it. isn't it?? i know what exactly what my heart tell me but i just dont wanna follow. wait, i think i did sometimes but this scare me. it really SCARE me!!

i didnt know that will be so strong, stronger than i tot it suppose to be. this remind me what happen last time. we started exactly like what happening now, and end it with some regrets. so i told myself this is not gonna happen again but too bad, it happen..LOL..

p/s 当每一个人都觉得他就是你的太阳，给你温暖，给你从早上起身所感觉到的希望时；同时他们也忘了，他们不能直视太阳，所以我不要做你的太阳，我只想要你快乐。

2009-08-31T21:30:00.000+08:00

OK. school is gonna start tomorrow. so yeah, gonna do a lot stuff when it start.T.T and gonna face a lot of people when school starts..NO!!! that sound like i am anti-social with people only. haha..

this holiday, hmm.. is fun actually. u know just now my mom was chatting with me and telling me school is gonna start tomorrow and i was like yeah. then she said dont u think time pass too fast? then i reply, no lar. not very fast for this holiday, if go back to school, time is gonnna pass even faster than u can imagine.LOL.. what am i saying wei..

anyway, what did i did in this holiday?! erm erm, just FYI, my holiday start on the Friday..LOL..

*** went to library with Waiyan on Friday and again i went to library on Monday with Edward and Chee Yoong. (dont be jealous Wendy).. haha. U know when we study there Sze Wei suddenly come and sms me. funny wei that guy but too bad he kena bang back by CY.lol..

*** tuesday something happen. then i dont know why she made me involve in this but somehow i feel guilty also when i see his face like that..

*** then went to play squash at the 1st time with Eric, Edward, Chee Yoong, Waiyan. didnt get to play with Edward and CY and also waiyan..hmm..next time.. then after that play true or dare in MCD. haha.. damn funny wei.. EDWARD!! U MISSED IT..

*** went to watch movie with my BFF.

i had fun in this holiday actually. haha. i should have go out more with my BFF.. we usually go out twice in every holiday Kan?? hmmm...next holiday!!

i want to watch FINIAL DESTINATION 4!!! dont know when i free...T.T kesian me weii.
oh yeah, i stil cant forget about the prank!! WAIYAN!!! u so funny!! ahahhahahahaha...

i think i need to stop here la. can not get high now,lather cant sleep.. TATA..

2009-08-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

well,

this is getting more complicated than i tot it is gonna be!!

that will be more worst when i got back to school..

i think i cant just run away or fake a smile when u ask the question, cause that will be more worst.

i cant stop SMILING when it comes to this!!

DAMN!! i am so predictable when it comes to this..=.=''

P/S i know u guys dont understand, but never mind. 'cause u no need to understand! LOL

2009-08-25T11:39:00.000+08:00

SOMETIMES THE TRUTH HURTS.

that is what u taught me, i learn to accepted it and like to know the truth. Although that will always hurt, but i just dont want people to lie. i dont know if u are the same as me. Or u rather no to know the truth and continue fake a smile like u are ok with it??

i know sometimes u like to keep everything to yourself.i did the same last time. that doesnt feel good. u think that is the best? NO..that makes all ur friends worry about u. last time i use to do that, my friends knew something wrong but just that i dont admit, then when the time pass. i realized how tired i was to just hiding it from friends. Midnight,my friend call, and i just cry on the phone. that is like a relief after all.(u knw who u are lar)

so sometime just tell ur friend a think about u. although they dont understand a think that u say but just tell them. u will feel much more better..

i dont know what is going to happen to u but i think u will be better than last time.
u know what's the best for u so just do it!! i will be there for u anytime.

wow, i didnt know i actually can write this wei..LOL...Be happy everyday!!!

p/s i am still very grateful i have got u, my friends..Especially U JHEK!!!

2009-08-22T10:39:00.000+08:00

after the album Goodbuy and Hello, here is another brand new album from Tanya《若你碰到他》

专辑简介：

地球上住著很多人，
有些人我們認識，有些人我們不認識，

『有幾個共同朋友』『要不要加為好友』
熟悉了，親密了，
然後，等到愛情終結了，
雙方又將回到…..陌生的初始狀態。

如果就像六度分隔理論說的，
「我與世界上任何一個陌生人的中間距離不會超過六個人!」
真的是這樣嗎?

穿梭在人群中的你我他
沒有人能預知，我們明天還會遇見誰。
P/S this need time to understand..i dont really get it mean, but maybe i will nest time.

i like this MV. somehow it look like taken by a LOMO camera.

2009-08-16T13:13:00.000+08:00

ok..i know the BBQ night with 5TH PJ is long time ago. but i think i said in the previous post that the picture will post up later rite. now.. here is it..

1st of all, the preparation and meeting with the BBians..

THIS IS SO CALL FACE PROBLEM!! LOL

see the girl siting so nicely no need to do the thinking one and i think that time Maddie is scolding her..LOL..

FROM the left is Edward Tan, Yeong Jiun and me.

i dont understand why Chua smiling when Edward and I look so stress.LOL..

when BBQ night....

fire lighting

can u see which one is me? lol

Eric's hands on the Chicken..yerr.. dirty one!! lucky got the plastic cover it..

ok..now at the same day before the BBQ night we had our marching practice then after that the juniors were taking there usaha badges with YuHong so i became the victim.. let's see how Yeong Ken made me feel like i am K YENG..

ANOTHER RANDOM PICTURE!!!

Szi wei he got running nose..LOL... see his suffering face..HAHA...

2009-08-16T12:47:00.000+08:00

yesterday we had ur marching competition and we got 2nd. Kalah kepada PKBM lagi..grrr... never mind.. juniors u all did the best!! haha.. the formation is very good!! ANYWAY, my point is not that..

my point is the meeting after the marching competition. we all had our COH meeting after the competition. what we discuss i cant talk here if not maddie will kill me, but for me that is not big deal lo..

oh yeah, when the meeting is almost end. i took ishaq's phone to take picture for fun. then i got 2 best shot. the watak utama for the day is.......WAIYAN!!!

I KNOW THE MEETING IS BORING BUT U NO NEED LIKE THAT DE..

Best KOKO-CRUNCH promoter ever..

oh my god!!! i can't stop laughing when i see this 2 picture.
when i took this 2 picture that time i was laughing like mad then i pass it to ishaq then he pass around. we all laugh like hell wei..and i dont waiyan to touch the phone cause she might delete it so that girl start crying when we dont let her see the photo. LOL...

2009-08-13T10:55:00.000+08:00

nothing much to say. cause really dont know what to say. ok..i know i am crapping now..

i did a lot of thinking lately.

i did cry when i actually SMS-ing my friend who is talking bout my past.(that is embarrassing)LOL..

i did feel crazy when ignorance take place.

i did know that something have change inside of me and i actually happy with it.LOL.

i did not know how to answer Szi Wei when he only ask me 'why are u looking so happy?!'

i did know that something is changing between u and me.

i did know the answer but i tot people change. but that wont be u,i should know that earlier.

i did know everything that is in my head. but i just dont know what is bothering me and i think i just can't accept it.(i guess)

ok..i dont know why i write this.

2009-08-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

I am sorry i can't be perfect.

i said that to myself.

cause i feel damn disappointed with myself now. i don't know why. so disappointed. i tot i change AND i become better BUT at the end i didn't change at all, AND becoming worst. DISAPPOINTED!! THAT IS BAD!!!

2009-07-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

since Chee Yoong ask me to update and simple crap in my blog so i decide to share this..haha...

ok. i just do a quiz. quite true also..
here is the result.

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

that is all la.haha..

2009-07-22T22:18:00.000+08:00

ok..i dont know what happen to me now. seriously.
i suppose to know what am i doing and i had a plan.
and my plan just run and gone ever since u come near.
feel like wanna slap you!!! i am serious.

i planed everything very nicely and i can expect what i can feel after all the plan.
but one thing i didnt consider is your reaction and ur suddent question which come out from no where. damn it..
and that ruin everything..

now?? what can i do?? just continue my plan and i know u will ask after my plan is over. damn it....

just let me to be like that la pls..cause that will make me feel better.

2009-07-18T20:17:00.000+08:00

i know, my blog is dead. i didnt update long time ad.

a lot of things happen this month. ok. i celebrated my birthday with my best friends. that is quite fun actually. untill i know that kelly not coming because of something. that is the most angry want. but relax i am not anymore.

CHS campfire was over, wendy, waiyan kelly and i were the only f4s going, so senior ask me to cheer intead. guess how i cheer? stand on the chair and cheer out. that is kinda fun actually like shouting all the stress out..wow. and u know what's the best part? is two days after the CHS campfire, i went to tuition with Jing Wen(CHS ranger) and i told her i am the one who stand on the chair and cheer. she was like 'WTH? that is u?? no wonder la. chilli padi can shout like that' hahha...

and i found out my friends about something. if u are close with me and my gang, u will know what's happening now la. ok. i am sorry to kelly and waiyan that i have done that to u guys. i made u guys felt very bad at the CHS campfire. i am sorry ok. but that time i just dont know why i did that. i just cant understand myself ok. i am sorry. i am kinda guilty after i have done that. oh gosh, feel like crying only..okok.enough of the guiltiness..hahha...

ok. i think i need to make myself clear about something with waiyan here.
i know u feel uncomfortable whenever u saw me with the XXX appear beside u.but i do feel uncomfortable also, i just keep avoiding, as u can see rite? and whenever i do so, u try to make peace between me and XXX again. that one i understand also. i dont dislike him ok?! hahha i dont know what's wrong with me la. i just want to avoid speak to him. i dont hate him. so dont be misunderstand ok? a case in point 'yuetmay dont like u guys together. so i hate XXX, break up now!!!' i didnt mean that ok? haha
p/s to waiyan : we care for u so we gave our opinion. u actually can dont listen to us,is up to u is ur decision. but u need to clear bout something {do the best thing for urself, protect urself from hurts and bla bla}. We cant judge what u done. follow ur heart girl.

today. carnival sukan...hmm..fun in a wayi guess. hahaha. get to see people ganas and angry faces. damn scary wei. especially the bola baling for guys want(L1 i think) damn ganas wei.next week gonna have 3 testes. Chemistry, Thursday. Bio and sejarah, Friday. and i think moral also. shit...i dont even study wei.not even one subject. oh mannn....wish me good lusk for my test ppl...i think i gonna end here. dont know when will update. so keep viewing my blog for the songs. hahah..

p/s i just cant take the smile on ur face already. that is way too adorable. i am serious. is just u didnt realized.

2009-06-21T20:28:00.000+08:00

I just came back from the Cultural Night '09. That is consider the best campfire ever that 10th PJ had done(i think). everything was just nice man.

i feel kinda sorry i can only make it to the camp on the 2nd day. anyway, i reach school around 4.30 after my tuition. Lucky my Sis fetch me there, if not i gonna take bus. haha.when i reach there alost everything done liao. i just help to prepare the things that need for the games for the night.
Around 6.30pm, Jia Qie and Chia Chi(head of ushering) just tell us wat to do and separate the job lo.my job is to lead them to the seat. Meet alot of friends also and also can see Leng zai.haha.
The performers and video also kinda great.around 12 something we go and ushered them go back and the same time i discover Ann Qie'(ranger from Assunta) hand are smaller than me.i damn happy wei..
Then we had dinner and started gossiping with Mark..haha. after that we arrange the chairs go back to the class. partner with Szi Wei is a very good idea, he can 'fly' the chair very far and fast.(we doing human chain).
The best time during the whole camp was gossiping with Mada, Maddie and Wai Yan when we rest and all the junior sleeping.damn funny wei, mada and maddie stay up the whole night and gossip about alot of things wei..they just kept talking talking and talking.
the next day, we fall in. then the COH they all said they are gonna announce the new probation COH. then the whole form 4 was like doing the expression of wth? haha.then they make fun of me they said i am gonna be the TL next year and Mark is gonna be the ATL cause of same height. swt rite? nevermind that was a joke. when i comes to real. everything is like so unexpected mann. here is the list.
Probation TL : Ishaq
P.ATL : Maddie(oh yeah)
P.SECT : YUET MAY(HAHA)
P.A SECT : Sze Li
P.QM : Satyan
P.qm(2) : WaiYan
P.TREASURER : Kelly(oh yeah)
P.DO : Mark(so cute...)
P.patrol leaders : wendy, mada
and i forgot liao....
i was kinda feel like expected i will kena Sect one, when Rachel announce she kept looking at me and i kinda feel so when they interviewing me last time. but i feel kinda surprise lo. at 1st i dont like the post one, then after that i heard WaiYan told me that she is gonna do alot of jobs for cleaning the bakao room after the camp the i feel so grateful that i only need to type and write minit only.haha. relax Rachel i will do my best for the job one. haha.
after that we take down the gadget and the tent all those stuff la. around 2 Siew Wen's sis come adi so i also go back liao lo.haha.

p/s to be continue and will post some photo about CN soon. see ya.

2009-06-05T12:29:00.000+08:00

boring ahhh....holiday..nothing to do. i know what happen if i say this words to Chon Giap Yu Hong or Maddie.They will ask me to go for gadget building in school.lazy to go take bus there la. so far. yerr..

u know wat i keep doing in this week?? listen to FM, watch anime, watch TV, read manga online yeng leh. currently addicted to comic but after holiday got no time so i wont read after holiday.

still got one week holiday, i still haven plan wei. Plan to go to Sg wang wan but Sit Wai dont know when can. wanna watch movie one but Kelly is working to cant go. if she is not working then i can go with her one. haizz..

monotonous!!!!!!!!

2009-05-30T19:40:00.000+08:00

kena tagged by Mada. haizz

Rules & Regulations:
*The tag questions must be 100% the same
*Tag people after doing tag
*No tagging back

List 5 Things You Like
Camera (those special one like LOMO)
Swimming?
Tanya!
Cheer Chen!

List 5 Things You Hate
those people ask something who doesnt think of common sense
people who know that i am not in the good mood then come and ask something that is useless.
when i am reading or studying, people come and kacao.
i hate Kenji Wu's song.
i hate Michelle Wong's song

List 5 Weird Facts Bout Yourself
sometime think too much
sometime like daydream much
like to see people(not include Ying Shuang and Jun Yen) breaking up.(i am not freak ok?!)
hate to be hard to predict.

List 5 People To Tag
Waiyan
Pik Sue
Rachel Quek
Alexandra
YOU.

2009-05-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

alright, examination is finally over. and holiday is coming.but for me my school holiday starting from today! LOL. see i am not a good student like the others. lol.
tomorrow cause of the teacher's day thingy so i am not going, i ajak my friends go and watch movie! oh yeah.

i think i am not gonna plan wat am i going to do in this holiday.so i will end up watching DVD or anime at home.who ask my sis ask me to borrow anime from Wendy?? but this holiday i really need to go and swim! i dont care adi, at least once!! Long time dint go swimming already!!

although Jun Yen they all ajak us to go Sunway Lagoon, i also tak nak pergi. That is why i always kena ngam' by Wai Wai. haha.then Kelly and I will tell her not to go cause once she go there she got no money for the next outing liao. and we kept on ask her not to go and tell her all those disadvantage!! hahha..so Wai Wai no need to go la..LOL. i know Kelly is with me! haha.

Oh yeah, and i promise Maddie i gonna show up for Deco next Monday. I think i am going but no one teman me go back! anyone?? haizz. No expectation on Waiyan, she will be the one playing Tai Qi. haha. some more i need to go library to return the book.need to plan on that.

i need u guys to tell me how's the blogskin. i think i like last time that one, but this is kinda nice la. i like the picture. wat is pain in the neck is the music playlist, it take a long time to make a sound. wat the heck?
i have to end la. nothing else to write liao but i found back the feeling for writing blog haha.

P/S i know u are never gonna be here..the thing i trying to hold back is easier than i had expect. "Once u wanna do u sure can do it" u said.

2009-05-22T18:46:00.000+08:00

alright, as u know we are having exam this week and the next week. The last paper for this week is Biology. What can i say? can do but will wrong and i surely will not get great result, but i expect that before i sit for the exam.

ok, next week will be having Physic and also Chemistry and add math. huh!! Physic i wanted to get a but seem like can not, i dont know how to write the essay. Chemistry?? although teacher give all the hint to us but i also dont remember that. i think i got a little confident in that subject, but memories lo. that is the reason why i also dont study smart.

enough for the exam thing. i want to go for a movie. anyone? haizz although is exam week but i still want to go and watch movie!!Bla Bla Bla.i think i got nothing to write ad. i cant wait for holiday!! and life is gonna be more monotonous compare to the pass. agree??

P/S i do want to hold back everything but i fail. Please well me that u are worth it. I will still try to hold back and ignore that feeling, i will keep trying. Because i know u are not worth it.that is a complicated emotion.

2009-05-08T20:26:00.000+08:00

i just took a quiz in Facebook. very very nice..
the name is

'what do ur eyes tell you'
my result was :

Deep Thinker
I think deeply about things going on in the present, past, and sometimes even future. I often drift off during work or class and start thinking about other things. I always hide what your thoughts form my friends and it often takes a poke or a snap of the fingers to bring you back to reality. My eyes often portray a different personality than I am. My eyes are a different part of my soul.

kinda accurate lo.i like this. people who dont know me, i am this kinda person!!! LOL..wanna know the real you?? take the test in facebook or CLICK HERE

2009-05-01T11:07:00.000+08:00

ok..i know that i long time didnt update and i am not so sorry bout it..wahaha

anyway, Junior camp over! i dont know i should be happy or not. but today i should go to PLTC but i didnt go because many things had to deal with so i decided i dont wanna go so everything settle. I am not going to tell what's the real reason that i dont wanna go! and i think i wont care la..

and Krystle's bday celebration is today also.i didnt go because i dont wanna go out..sorry Krystle anyway i know u must be having fun now, just hope ppl dont ffk la..hhaha...

wat else?? oh ya..thanks Jon for being so nice to me these days and i am feel so sorry bout it. i am sorry that i beat u mann.hahaha..and i will continue 'antisocial'!! wahaha..

i think now i should study for my exam la. my tuition teacher just gave me bunch of add math question and expect me to finish by next tuesday i think that is around 20++ questions--siao..and i really need to study for physic and chemistry 'cause i already skip one chemistry class and 3 physic tuition classes. yeng leh?? and i think i can really score good grade for the mid year exam. Die lorrr...

and and and just now i just checking the Citibank Reward for my dad then i spot some nice watch.. some ppl who close to me know cant read the clock quite fast and i dotnhave a watch but i really like watch such as those watch like Zar's(u know the brown one??), and Rutra one and also my another friend for CHS, their watch is consider nice la..

and i spot this.. Marc Ecko Watch

and at last, good luck for those who are in PLTC and hope Wendy will get well soon!!
and i want to go out!!!

2009-04-18T20:33:00.000+08:00

ok..i am gonna talk about yesterday and today...

yesterday was our Mr.Sum's birthday.we celebrate and that was fun. believe me or not? we stay in the kbox for at least 5 hours(i think).that was fun!! morning we went for movie and we saw Kar Chun with his gf(perfect couple, those 2 very leng)haha.the movie damn boring la..

anyway, we went to redbox after that, we sang, we laugh, we joke and so on..can u believe redbox actually put condom in the room which i think that is free of charge??(i think)damn funny wei. and i remember that time i am actually tidy my jeans, and they tot i am gonna (u know) then they gave me the pack!! i was like wat the hell??

and when we brought the cake in front of Sum Sum he nearly cry mann..can see how awkward is that..i know that mann!!

ok talk bout today. sports day. QM got new shirt, and that doesnt have S size so i am wearing the M. Jane said that is more like a pajamas.oh yeah! the design is ok la..but i like the quality.

so we our duty, and we cheer for them!! then we pack everything then choa..the whole day under the sun!! and u know wat? Hean came to school!!! wat a miracle man. but actually it is not. Hean is ex-student of samad and he is consider my brother why?? because we born on the same day but different year of course. haha.. then i ask him 'why u come to schoo??' guess wat he said?? 'come and fetch u home lo'he answer. dang!! za dou lo..

can u guys imagine what happen after i got into his Viva? 1st thing i said 'oh my, PATRICK!!!!' sorry i really like Patrick, i suppose it is a cartoon, but i didnt watch i just like the doll or some sort of product.

and u guys know wat next?? he actually dont know the way to go back to Subang, i mean use which way. i was like 'not here meh?' 'not that road meh?' then he said 'no la..'no la'..cant trust.btw we two also sesat one.but lucky we got home safe!! haha...this prove that my 方向感 very bad!! haha...

and in the car he joke alot. those ppl know him will know how he za people.and the best joke was..

'CAREFUL!!' he shout(not that loud la.）
'wat?'
'There..' he point to the lorry in front
'wat？' i repeat.
'there, the lorry wrote. ." AWAS KENDERAAN PANJANG" '
za dou?? if u dont understand then nevermind..haha

ok i think that's all la..
here is the photo that we took when Sum Sum's birthday.

Birthday boy!!

I am tall!!LoL

Girls around boy??

SING OUT LOUD!!

posing??

2009-04-16T21:04:00.000+08:00

oh my god!!!! u know just now i go and read Nick's blog..then he post one video.i think that is standard 6 that time one..

but i know where they took the video.i think is in the school's hall and that time we all standard 4 or 5 students can become sound master one..yeng leh?? the sound master room is in the hall..upstairs la..i know u cant imagine.those who are from Subang primary school they know la..like Hui Teng ah..

anyway..the vidoe damn funny mann..u can see Chi Hong.how he look like when he is standard 6(retarded) LOL..damn funny ok?

and u should see how people change(i mean their height and look) let me show u...

the most upright standing one...his name is Chun Ye
see wat he look like now..

leng zai rite??

and the one standing one on the left hand side one,believe me or not??i forgot his name ad..anyway,have a look..

didnt change much rite??

anyway the video is funny!!! hahha...

2009-04-16T20:27:00.000+08:00

i got a long time didn't update my blog ad...sorry sorry..haha

school just like the same lo..but last week and this week we all have sukan tara..so..as a QM, need to stay back everyday. that is fun.

wat i remember the most is when there is 15oo meter run. i was suppose to do my duty that day, but chon giap didnt tell me wat time they all go out untill i saw Lance they all in the padang. deng..

anyway, is better to watch the game in the class. got fan..haha...and we all cheer for Zar when he was close to the ending point.then he got the 1st place, congrats congrats..and P1 is the only Chinese runner is YuHong..he got the 3rd i suppose...hahaha

and u know wat? Kelly finally make her own blog but then is private one..for those who wanna read then go ask her la.hehe.Dia dipengaruh oleh saya..hahha.
and just know chat with Keng Ho, he show me the video he recorded in school..dance la..wanna watch??CLICK HERE
ok la..not bad.but u should see how Ah Ming they all dance there dance also quite yeng lo...

and this Saturday we have Sport day.this is the 1st year i am not in the perbarisan in scout. i have nothing to say bout that. i will surely go to Sport day to do my duty.haha..and u will see our new QM shirt, i dont know the design but they all said is quite nice..for scout's perbarisan wish u guys good luck mann..haha

and tomorrow is SumSum's birthday!!! we are going to celebrate!! but i dont know who is going tomorrow, i mean guys la...i will give u the detail tomorrow!!! that will be very fun!! hhaa

see ya..=)

P/S i miss u..

2009-04-08T21:47:00.000+08:00

我畫了一個滿是缺口的圓，
你就是生命中填補殘缺的空間。
我提著一個簡簡單單的行李，
搭上你那班失去軌道的列車。

我唱著一首單純的歌，
而你就是那一再重覆的和弦。

每個陌生與熟悉的交界，
你誤闖了我無知的狂戀，
我用寂寞懲罰我的午夜，
請讓我延續，所有的思念。
所有的思念...

我想了一整夜關於未來的情節。
你就是那個沒有名字的故事。
我留下一滴失去溫度的眼淚，
要走出對你無盡的狂戀。

我唱著一首單純的歌，
而你就是那一再重覆的和弦。

每個陌生與熟悉的交界，
你誤闖了我無知的狂戀，
我用寂寞懲罰我的午夜，
請讓我延續，所有的思念。
所有的思念...

我提著一個簡簡單單的行李，
要安靜走出，對你的，
狂戀。

2009-04-05T18:04:00.000+08:00

did u know that Cheer Chen(陳綺貞) already release her latest album??
i just go and check out all her new song in her latest album..damn freaking nice mann..if those like Tanya surely will also like Cheer Chen's song..she wrote the song on her own. they are very very very nice...

her voice just so special...really!!!! her album called 太阳.

I like most of her song especially these :
click to listen in Youtube!!!

失敗者的飛翔(fly for you)

下個星期去英國(go to England next week)

距離(distance)

魚(the edge)

手的預言(rebirth)

狂戀(complex)

太陽(immortal)

wait..did i just list down all the song in the album?? anyway they are nice..support Cheer Chen!!!

2009-04-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

Tag;People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs. Tag 10 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

i tagged....

Maddie
Waiyan
Sit Wai
Mum Sum
Jane
Jon
Hui Ting..
you
you
you

1.What have you been doing recently?
homework!!

2. Do you ever turn your cellphone off?
No..

3. What happened at 10.00 am today?
i am in school la..and i dont have a watch and i dont care!!

4. When did you last cry?
i dont remember

5. Believe in fate/destiny?
sometimes

6. What do you want in your life right now?
things that i dont have

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
u think leh??

8. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
sleep la..if not??

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
are u really curious bout that? sigh

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox says?
i dont remember

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
No of course..i have alot of time nowadays meh??

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
now?? no...

13. What was the last movie you caught?
i dont remember!! i didnt watch any movie long time ago!!Sum Sum let's go hahaha!!

14. What are you proud of?
ermm.. my height?? LOL

15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
Hi..i think from Jon

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
i forgot..but i think i do sang with waiyan and sitwai they all..

17. Do you have any nicknames?
ya

18. What does your last received message say?
i dont know

21. Who gives you best advice?
depends...

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
i hate cream

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
my mum

24. Is anyone bugging you right now?
No...i think

25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh
Jessica!!! haha

26. Do you wear toe socks?
yes.. i got only one pair..(my sis bought one)

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
my dad

28. Have you ever had your heart borken?
yes..but not so serious

29. Who annoys you the most in person?
Eugene!!!

30. Do you have any crush on anyone?
No!! i hope i do!! haha

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
NO...

32. What is the colour of your room?
GREY AND light green

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
yes..but no...

34. Do you believe in the saying of: talk is cheap?
No...

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
No one dare to...wahha

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
i forgot

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
No...wahaha

38. Do you have a life?]
yes i have but i think i lost my soul

39. Have you ever thought someone died when they really didnt die?
yeah..u know those ppl who act in drama and kena shoot by gun and they alive in a real life...wahha..i know is lame but Hean Hean teach one...haha

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
i dont have a profile song.if i do that means that i really like the song..

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
i dont really dream much..

42. Last time you smiled?
2 second ago..

43. Have you changed this year?
yes.. alot..i become more happy than last year!!

44. What are you listening right now?
nothing.. my room is quiet..

45. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
No..

46. Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
teach me how to walk with my eyes closed without banging the wall

47. Is there a quote you live by?
i dont know..it change every time..now for me is 'every cloud has it's silver lining'

48. Do you have someone you cannot have?
yes..(last time) now i dont think so..

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
yes

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
i haven got any plan for this week

51. What were you doing last night at 11pm?
sleeping

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
i am happy anyway and u no need to know that i do have a love life or not..LOL..

53. What song best decribed your love life?
I will be(i think_)

54. Does the person knows that you like him/her?
didnt i told u that i dont have a crush on someone??

55. Who always make you laugh?
Maddie, waiyan, kelly, sitwai, sum sum, Keng Ho!!!and so much more

56. Do you speak other language other than english?
yes

57. Favourite website(s)?
......

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
go to school and stay back for QM~~

60. Who do you think you are like?
xiao po...(wat maddie always say)

61. Who will you choose to die with?
i dont know

62. Where have you been today?
bus stop. my school..my house..my tuition class..

63. What game do you play often?
..

64. Who are you missing right now?
someone

65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
both!!!

66. What are you doing right now?
u think leh??

67. Which primary school are you from?
subang

68. Name 3 colours that you like.
blue black grey

69. What emoticon you like to show?
^.^

70. What is your life to you?
more than i expect..

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
try to solve it lo..if not??

72. Who did you last chat on msn today?
pei yee and pei wern

73. Who do you admire most?
Jihoo!!!

74. Which month are you born in?
july

75. How are you feeling right now?
happy

76. What's the time now?
10.03pm

77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
i dont know

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
i didnt dye my hair before..

79. Why are you doing this?
i have nothing to update to my blog so i do this..haha

80. What do you do when you're moody?
i dont talk to anyone, and put on a long face..just like my forehead is writing'dont come near me, if not i will kill u!!'

81. At which age you wish to get married?
i dont know

82. Who is more important to you?
my family

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
tell the person ilove that i love them

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
alot..

85. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after a rain?
yeah!!

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
be successful in my life!!

87. What is your goal for this year?
i dont know..i have alot..

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
Yes

89. What feeling do you love most?
be like some one care

90. Do you really think its global warming now?
Yes

91. What feeling do you hate most?
Betrayed

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yeah

93.Do you believe in God?
sometimes

94. Who cares for you most?
my family

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
family, friends

96. What will you bring when you fight?
i dont fight with hands with my height!!! T.T

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
hurt people who love(d) me..

98. What would you feel if no one longer cares for you?
heartbroken

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
depends on wat's the situation la..

100. How do you feel now?
finally finish i think i really need to go to sleep now...

seeya...

2009-03-29T11:25:00.000+08:00

Mayday's new song!!! i think... okok only la...

夜访吸血鬼歌词：

作词：五月天冠佑/阿信作曲：五月天冠佑/阿信

满怀忧伤却流不出泪极度的疲惫却不能入睡
只能够日日夜夜然后又日日夜夜
无尽的日日夜夜永远的深陷在人间

我是蝙蝠却不能飞困在日复一日的街
无止尽的狩猎彷佛一种天谴
夜色就是我的披肩日出就是我的风险
舞池里的狂颠是我宿命制约
上帝遗弃我们却又要给黯淡的月
照亮世界要我们无尽又无情的繁衍
看爱过的人一一告别做过的梦
一一凋谢只留下我独自残喘的千年

无法挥舞天使的纯洁也无法拥有魔鬼的果决
只有像每个人类贪嗔痴傻和愚昧
找寻著体温和血找寻著同类
满怀忧伤却流不出泪极度的疲惫却不能入睡
只能够日日夜夜然后又日日夜夜
无尽的日日夜夜永远的深陷在人间

饥饿是最好的调味孤独是最强的催眠
疯狂找一双唇能够当我酒杯
早就对这一切厌倦也曾愤怒喝下圣水
却又无助醒在下个漫长黑夜
青春遗忘我们却又要给回忆的美
就像玫瑰要余生流血又流泪的受虐
看镜中的脸慢慢枯萎高举的拳
渐渐粉碎只留下了无限唏嘘的相片

无法挥舞天使的纯洁也无法拥有魔鬼的果决
只有像每个人类贪嗔痴傻和愚昧
找寻著体温和血找寻著同类
满怀忧伤却流不出泪极度的疲惫却不能入睡
只能够日日夜夜然后又日日夜夜
无尽的日日夜夜永远的深陷在人间

一个又一个孤单的千年只能够日日夜夜
然后又日因夜夜无尽的日日夜夜
我不能飞

2009-03-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

oh my god....

when u read fong Yee Leng's blog, her blog background damn nice mann...i mean the guy not exactly the layout la...

did he just too handsome and cute when he smile?? wow..(i am not in love with him, i wont be like Yee Leng fall in love with Raymond)...but he just soo lengzai!!! ok enough..bye...